Started the day teaching, then threw myself into serious biz mode in the afternoon by literally putting pants on over my tights in the office, then back to teaching again, then executing some marketing material..
My power is taking on many things, but not doing any of them at a high level.
The big meeting in the middle of the day I’d been low key dreading because big business negotiations are just not something I am familiar with. I was just hoping not to agree to anything catastrophic.
But I was already wearing the pants, and the nature of our small family business (and perhaps how green and inexperienced I am) helped me continue to be the harmless player in the game and allowed the other stakeholders to guide the discussions.
Everyone wanted to make things work.
No one tried to throw a curveball or play power games or seemed like they were hiding anything and I was able to get clarity because of how pro-business and understanding these much more experienced people were.
Even though now as I’m trying to collect our response to their proposed agreement, I’m still trying to see how we can protect ourselves better. I’m literally praying to God to open my eyes to anything I need to know going in because even though I’ve got a tiny bit more confidence now, this whole project is a lot of work once we take it on, and it’s a lot of risk.
It’s not a sexy deal for us.
It just adds a bit more income for the staff and eats up a whole bunch of our time and effort that no one will ever see. But we have to do it, because otherwise we won’t survive in this industry.
So I felt somewhat useful today. My teaching was even solid and I felt like I added value to everyone today. I was stretched thin but I showed up. It was just much easier to be satisfied with myself today.
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