Yesterday was my last official day at work. It’s been a whirlwind adventure,\u00a0and it swept me up in a\u00a0tornado of things.\u00a0There was a certain sense of autonomy but also a great sense of responsibility which crippled me.<\/p>\n
I told myself to look at it\u00a0as a challenge, but I realised after fighting for it that it wasn’t me. The industry that looked so enticing at first no longer excites\u00a0me. I\u00a0can only describe the disappointment in that discovery as if\u00a0I figured out\u00a0the trick behind the magic.<\/p>\n
I\u00a0was constantly on the lookout for the nearest escape route.\u00a0I could be a librarian. I could be a barista. I could help in the family business. I could do anything I wanted, and live ten thousand different lives. The world was huge and there are other things to explore and learn.<\/p>\n
So I decided to leave.<\/p>\n
It was difficult because I felt like I owed it to everyone to make it work. But it became easier after I realised that it was the most responsible thing for me to do.<\/p>\n
In Singapore, it feels like success is measured with a ruler. Being someone<\/em>, somewhere<\/em>, doing something big\u00a0and important<\/em>.<\/p>\n I remember writing in autograph books when I was in primary school\u00a0that my wish was to be successful<\/em> when I grew up.<\/p>\n What does that look like?\u00a0I’m still searching.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Yesterday was my last official day at work. It’s been a whirlwind adventure,\u00a0and it swept me up in a\u00a0tornado of things.\u00a0There was a certain sense of autonomy but also a great sense of responsibility which crippled me. I told myself to look at it\u00a0as a challenge, but I realised after fighting for it that it […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[11,27],"class_list":["post-505","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-daily","tag-life","tag-work"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/catchmyfall.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/505","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/catchmyfall.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/catchmyfall.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/catchmyfall.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/catchmyfall.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=505"}],"version-history":[{"count":7,"href":"https:\/\/catchmyfall.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/505\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":524,"href":"https:\/\/catchmyfall.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/505\/revisions\/524"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/catchmyfall.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=505"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/catchmyfall.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=505"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/catchmyfall.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=505"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}